Wednesday 4 March 2020

Dream Diary #131: Getting Crushed

I am living/staying inside a big house with several floors, surrounded by many people - most of whom are little children.

It soon becomes apparent that two of the children are The Crush's. In real life, he and his wife are more than capable of taking care of their kids and have many, many other babysitter options before me, so I do not know why they are in my care but for some reason it makes me happy and I really enjoy playing with and getting to know them. It weirdly makes me feel closer to The Crush and like I am getting to know him better, through them.

At one point the younger of the two is painting and gets paint on her clothes - she is wearing some sort of fairy or princess costume and I take it off her to put it in the wash and I really hope The Crush and his wife are not angry at me for her clothes getting messed up while on my watch.

I look up and catch a glimpse of The Crush returning 'home' and it seems that he has been out drinking, which explains why I am taking care of his children, although there is no mention, sighting or acknowledgement of his wife's whereabouts. 

He sees me and smiles as it seems he had prior knowledge that I was babysitting his kids (I had no prior knowledge until I saw them) and he stops and engages in quite a long, in-depth conversation with me (in reality he has rarely ever done this) and even tipsily confesses that he thinks he may have a gambling problem (something I don't actually believe to be true) but it humanizes him to me in way as I have had a tendency to put him on a pedestal.

He suddenly stops, as if he's going to say something, smiles at me and then looks away without saying anything and a voice in my head says, "He would tell you how he feels about you, if he could."